i'm ready to come back.


dell.


to tell you the truth.i 've never missed someone during these 20 days.i feel good,and thought,that's it.Britain,the exactly place that i'm looking for although i've been late for over 1000 years.


my cousin told me everyone is selfish at my age, it's really normal.but then he said,you were really terrifying.am i special?

and,frankly speaking. i need to be spacial.
i 've met christina.i 've met ivan who was called the knight.


knight has to rescue the princess.
but no one can be rescued.



dreaming.
not always dreaming.

christina told me,love was,nothing spacial nothing attractive, nothing serious. of course, we needn't to be responsible that's funny.
and cousin told me i couldn't be responsible for the things i 've done.everything is a new taste,so why not.don't lose the chance.

love isn't a preasures.
only someone who has never experienced it thought it was a preasure.and unfortunately i'm one of those idiots.


but anyway,i'm ready to come back now.



and i'm going to tell you.i 'm not missing so much.
only a little.

四大古国，无一例外地在近代被惨遭蹂躏，历史可以蒙蔽人的眼睛，姑且相信有前世今生，这也是为什么我们的来世无法记得今世发生的一切。《埃及生死书》中说我们的灵魂保留了前世的经验所以人类社会才得以进步，我认为至少这一点是不对的。

如果进步真的像转世那样烦琐又简单的话，那么我认为这是对人类文明的一种否认。

灵魂的再生既然是上帝安排的，那么再神圣的意识和思想也不过是傀儡而已。

死亡的确是无法回避的，也是无法预谋的。正因为知道死亡的意义才会明白生存的意义。我的同学都不明白。我用羽毛球拍扇死一只白色的蝴蝶，那个时候或许它正要去奔赴一场夏天的约会，但是白色的羽翅零落之后，一切都结束了。

我们的确随时都要做好迎接死亡的准备，因为我们的处境并不比那只蝴蝶安全到哪里去。她们却只知道说我是一个变态。

高考！老师！同学！你们看到的仅仅只是走路过斑马线而已么！

那么我可以说我每次都等红灯每次都不乱丢垃圾你们怎么没有全跑来赞美我而骂我变态呢！或者说我们的教育就仅仅要大家看到这些“社会公德”“精神基石”就足够了么？！就像庄井说的，果然表面上越变越好的不仅仅是成都，哪里不是一样的呢？！

社会最后会变成什么样？难道我们不是被自己的梦想所鞭策才走到这一步的么？还是悠久的人类文明只是在作茧自缚？！

是的，现在我们，穷得连梦想和思考都快没有了。

现在你知道吉萨为什么保存着那么多伟人的躯体却终于还是免不了沦陷坍塌的命运么？

因为那些人太想得到它了。

因为所谓文明，就是一个重新开始的过程。我们就是它车轮前进时轧过的尸体。